the void

my eyes flicker

as i lie bare

turning to my side



i get up

to an ocean of

stillness...



rubbing my eyes

once

twice

again



in hopes of teleporting

to a different landscape

even if in a dream



is it a dream?



i find my footing

scanning the room

soaking it in



i wander a bit,

for eternity...

familiarizing, as if



there is no beginning

there is no end



thoughts galloping ahead

pulse creeping in protest

in a competition

to collapse

first



losing grip as i 

scream into 

oblivion...



i crumble 

from my own

commotion



in between

dead or alive

i exist



i weigh my choices

to release it all

be numb



to escape

or gaslight myself—

if it happened at all



where am I?



dragged through this routine

day

after

day



heart perpetually simmering

never crossing the threshold

to boil 

and 

blast



the beginning is the end

the end is the beginning

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